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Cake day: September 13th, 2023

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  • I play like Morrowind. I stay in safe areas and do low level small quests. I stick up and prepare before a journey. I try to join small factions for both missions and protections.

    A gunfight would quickly end with me dead, and there would be no way of changing the story. If I was armed, it would be easy to tell all kinds of stories about what happens. I know cops lie.

    I have zero interest in violence. Being a queer kid in Oklahoma has already resulted in experiencing physical violence at multiple points in my life. I have spent more time learning to make a punch hurt less than I have learning to throw them. Any point where retaliation has been attempted makes the punches harder, and garners me more other consequences. It’s easier to show people your gashes if they cannot reveal a bruise.


  • There have been so many cops everywhere the past fucking week where I live. I am so terrified.

    I started using men’s restrooms in 2013. No one ever cared. No one has ever cared.

    I used to travel a lot across my state - I like going to wonky small towns, dragged ex’s to places like the Spiro Mounds, wanted to explore the ghost town of Picher, had adventures with foster children in Arkansas…. but I have to stay in a city now.

    It’s like a video game map now. Hubworlds are safe, the cops will be noticed if they do something and are at least dimly aware of that. But travel could cause a random encounter, with multiple deeply unpleasant outcomes.

    That is why they do that shit. It’s stochastic terrorism. At least when I was a kid crying in terror over 9/11, the world was telling me that it was happening and it was real.






  • I usually give the nicer ones away.

    I’m pretty sure the way I perl is illegal, and would offend anyone, continental or English.

    I’m putting this in a little free library I think.

    I have this “default” pattern that I do while watching tv. Sometimes mess up terribly, but just keep going because I don’t use paper towels at all and this is my substitute.

    It’s a very nice, cheap hobby. Dollar tree often has some okay cotton, it splits a lot but not impossible to deal with. Hot water cleaning cycle, which is necessary for cleaning things anyway, tends to tighten the cotton such that the gaps are really tightly bound.

    Idk - I think this is a great double sided pattern. The back half has like garter/back of stockinette ridges for deep scrubbing, the front side looks pretty and has those softer length ridges for small, delicate detail work in scrubbing.

    Do a multiple of three + 1

    S1, p2, k1 repeat

    S1, k2, p1, repeat

    Knit all

    Perl all

    I’m stealing this, but it’s from a blog post I read years ago 😅
















  • painting something and then covering it with layers and layers of single color paint.

    I think this might be a kind of reference to Rothko. I have to say something cliché, ask you to take this as an act of faith, but it’s a spiritual experience in person. It’s the immensity of the thing itself, being in a room surrounded by this wall of carefully placed color. It’s motion. Maybe you can approximate it by looking at a high res image of it, but nothing really escapes the three walls surrounding you, drowning you in color.

    There’s the Rothko Chapel down in Texas that has a lot of his work I want to see - the experience I had was at the Tate.

    A stick figure is kind of cute to imagine, but it would subvert that “sensory tank” experience that I found… blissful. Black, as a color? To look at the absence of light as a kind of thing?

    Tbh, I make a lot of that “slap slight variations of the same color across a single canvas” - usually my homemade paper or random thrifted objects. I like doing it, but I’m not quite sure if it’s “art” in the same way.

















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